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.Whitneyliked to observe other people's pain.It helped with his own."Everything in him stilled.She had revealed an important piece of information withouteven knowing what she was giving him."What pain?""He uses other people's pain to drown out his own.I think his pain stems from perceivedabandonment, real or not; he feels very disconnected from everyone around him.He hasrage toward his parents and teachers, people who didn't recognize his genius.He's verypatriotic and has anger toward certain individuals in the government who don't share hisvision, because he believes he's smarter and they should listen to him.All of that causespain, but he doesn't recognize that it does.He can't connect with anyone.""He has a daughter."She nodded, chewing on her lower lip thoughtfully, frowning while she did so."Lily.Hespoke of her sometimes, and when he did, I could feel a rush of emotion in him, but itwasn't like my parents when they touched me.It wasn't the same as anything I've everidentified with as a parent's love.He views her as an extension of himself.He's amegalomaniac, has an absolute belief that he's superior to everyone else and that no onewill ever measure up to his capabilities except perhaps Lily or her children."Kadan nodded."That's a fair assessment of Dr.Whitney.""You're certain he's still alive? My parents well, my father always insisted we usehim as a doctor, but I haven't seen him since he was supposedly murdered.""What kinds of things did he do to you?""He told Mom and Dad he was helping me with the headaches, but they never wentaway or even got better.Mostly he gave me physicals, asked a lot of questions, was veryinterested in whether I had sex or not, and took a lot of blood and tissue samples.He alsospent a lot of time on my eyes.He was very interested in the fact that I almost alwayshave to wear dark glasses and that I see differently than other people."Kadan was very interested in whether or not she had sex as well, but figured this wasn'tthe best time to ask her."What's different about the way you see?"ABC Amber LIT Converterhttp://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlABC Amber LIT Converterhttp://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlTansy shrugged, but didn't comment.Kadan let it go."Did he give you injections?"She nodded."They hurt like hell." She frowned."You know, I didn't always get a lot offof him, the way I do most people.Not him, exactly, his things.At the time, when Itouched objects, I could read a lot about a person, but it was more difficult with him.Ofcourse, by that time, I tried to wear gloves everywhere I went.""You haven't felt anything even when you touch an object I've touched, have you?"Kadan asked."I'm an anchor, which means that I can draw psychic energy away fromyou.I can also shield both of us from any energy and keep others from feeling ours."He deftly added the vegetables to the rice and took the plates she handed him to serve themeal on."My talents come in handy on missions when we need to hide from the enemy.""But not so handy tracking serial killers," Tansy observed.He nodded."I'm good at working puzzles out, and once I'm pointed in the right direction,I'll find him, but I need a little help."Tansy's heart jumped.She could never allow him to lull her into a false sense of security."I'm sorry that help can't be me, Kadan, but it can't be.I know you've got all the uglylittle details of my hospitalization.They couldn't take away all those voices, thevictims or the killers.Do you have any idea what it's like to hear screams and feelsomeone's desperate last thoughts all the time, and I meanall the time? To know the mindof a killer intimately? The delicious perverted pleasure he gets out of carving someoneup, or burying them alive?" The door in her mind creaked ominously and whispers grew.She took a deep breath, controlled herself, and slammed it shut."You're already bringingthose days back and I haven't even tried to help you.""I can keep most of the psychic spill from targeting you."She turned her head and removed her glasses, looking him straight in the eye."No, youcan't, not and have me track him.I'd need to feel him, get inside his mind to do whatyou're asking.You and I both know you can't take it out of my head once it's there."Kadan hated that she was right.And he hated it more that she drew on gloves.She hadtouched him and hadn't felt anything, he'd protected her, but she didn't trust him and for agood reason truthfully, shecouldn't.He had to bring her back with him.There weredays when his job sucked, and this was one of them."Sit down and let's eat.You can tell me about that cat.She's out there watching us now, Ican feel her staring at us."ABC Amber LIT Converterhttp://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlABC Amber LIT Converterhttp://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlTansy took the plate he handed her, careful, even with the gloves, to keep from touchinghim."She's curious about you.She probably hasn't seen anyone else in months.And herden is close.She's due to give birth anytime." Excitement flashed in her voice."I'mhoping to get some great shots.If I'm lucky, she might change her mind and use the caveI've set up in to film the event, although so far she's been ignoring it.""Why don't you persuade her?""I can't do that.""You stopped her from attacking.If she'd wanted to do it, she could have done somemajor damage to you, but she didn't," he pointed out."You have to have some controlover her."Tansy sank down onto a log and indicated that he could have the one chair she'd brought."Maybe, but it's not really like that.I have an affinity with animals, I've always had it.But I don't really talk to them, not telepathically.""Are you certain?"She chewed on her lower lip.He liked that lower lip and found himself staring as hersmall teeth tugged at it."I 'push' a little to get them to do what I want, but it's not a conscious thing." She took abite of the stir-fry.The man could cook."Not bad.""Self-preservation."His eyes crinkled around the edges, tiny lines showing that he squinted a lot.His longlashes were thick and dark, and helped to cover the expression in his dark blue eyes."I've never been afraid of animals," Tansy said."I've always liked being around them.Ican touch them and not find myself somewhere else.""What does that mean?" Kadan's low voice slid into her mind like soft butter."Findingyourself somewhere else? What does that mean?"Her expression closed down immediately and she shrugged."When I touch objects, theworld narrows and I'm in a tunnel, like an alternate world.Everything bends and curvesand the energy is there, preserved for me like a recording, only I'm in it, feelingeverything that is happening, no matter what it is." She looked him in the eye again."Allof it.Everything [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]